Cody Howell

I am a restless transplant. I imagine that will always be the case. I may have just moved over 800 miles away, changed my zip code, drivers license, and scenery but why does it still not feel like enough?

James Kavanaugh puts my thoughts into words best:

“Some people do not have to search. They find their niche early in life and rest there, seemingly contented and resigned. They do not seem to ask much of life, sometimes they do not take it seriously. At times I envy them, but usually I do not understand them. Seldom do they understand me.
I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy but neither are we really content. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like long walks along the beach; we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers and lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know — unless it is to share our laughter.
We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything good and beautiful it can provide. Most of all we want to love and be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or to compete for love.”

I’m sure there are plenty of lessons for me to learn; about patience, investing in relationships and community, patience, living in the now, etc.

Learning is hard though. Takes initiative. It means I’ve got to stop hitting the snooze button and get to work.